If you know someone who looks like this

or worse (there's definitely someones default picture I'D LOVE to put on here(Nessa knows), THAT SUCKS. These people are fucking ugly, some guys can pull off long hair but you either commit or you don't. This middle length shit on purpose and not just being an "awkward stage" is fucking gay. And if you look like a fucking goose and your adam's apple is the size of my proverbial dick (huge), and you rock out to smashing pumpkins and love the red album. CUT YOUR HAIR, don't even grow it out, you're a douche. I'd rather fuck Pheobe Price than anyone who looks like you.

If you have middle length hair and you don't look like this and you could never pull this off, get a fucking haircut you douche. You look like a fucking cunt with ears.

A Pedophile Way

Okay not really, but this kid has EXTREMELY GOOD GENES AND FASHION SENSE. Can you be mad at me :/, CAN YOU? When Robert Downey Jr. is fine and I basically expected that his offspring would exhibit signs of beautiful at a young age.
1)He has a band, they were in "kidstock" so tight.
2)He's Robert Downey Jr.'s fineself's son.
3)His mom is Deborah Falconer.
I'll lay this out for you.


Hot Robert Downey Jr (or Elias Jr.)

Deborah Falconer Looking like a "What's her Slut?" or (whatsaslut, like whatchamacallit but for sluts) in the mid 90s.

Indio Falconer Downey (Elias, come on, Robert Downey Sr changed his last name so he could get in the military underage :/) He's beautiful

Lourdes Leon

IS MY HERO. She may be younger than me, but she definitely has more style than I could even dream of obtaining.

It doesn't help she's the spanish madonna, she's fucking fierce and hot in a non pedophile way. Madonna needs to watch out when Lourdes is like 15 she will be fucking :/

Right Now

I missed blogging last night/early morning. I have a life. Now I'm at home making techno yep. Nothing really to post, i'll tell you about my night later and I might tell you about my odd dream.

Today's Culture of the Weak

Juggalos

I can sum up juggalos in just mere words:faygo,tits,the gathering,and hatchets

if you don't know you're a juffalo

If you read my blog

Then you deserve to see this geeky video I took of my self on graduation day.

Recommended Listening

Boy 8-Bit are trip to listen to literally putting me through a brain orgasm the minute their songs start playing. Their song the suspense is killing me reminds me of like a really old video game soundtrack of some sort. If you for some reason dress up in a lot of 80s excercise clothes and you are a dirty slut who likes to get fucked hard? Plus you're obsessed with the seventies and you live in a dumpster and have AIDS? You would love this music. I don't know how that's a compliment to the band but they should just take it as one :]

I know, I know

SO I totally know what that last dream means. I realized mentally in terms of being in a gridlock, I'm in the exact same place I was in a year okay, OKAY so in about 2 months I'll be in the exact exact place, and if you put me forward by another 3 months OH SHIT, i'll probably puke because my thoughts are exactly the same. I've changed but the ordeals that I go through everyday within my brain have not, THEY did change for a while. For a while I had no dilemma only a "meh maybe" and now I have a full blown dilemma on my hands again and I know that in august it'll just subside and then I'll be busy with school and it won't really matter for a while, but then christmas is gonna come and I'm not going to be doing anything and BAM dilemma, but maybe it'll be different, that's what I'm hoping. OH SHIT and then what about spring. If my life goes as planned spring will be a dilemma fest. then summer vacay next year. I'm doing again what my dad always cusses me out for, thinking to far ahead in the future about things that could change. Maybe I'll overcome the mental dilemma. OR MAYBE I'LL CHERISH IT(like i don't already want to fuck the shit out of it right?(haha nessa), fuck i'm neurotic :/. I'm like a hard on for people on prozac.

thoughts

i've been having a lot of thoughts. I don't know what to think about this dream I had. So in the dream I was in a cafe , on my laptop with the wifi connection and I was trying to go to any other college, well really I was just trying to go to Reno, and I had applied to three colleges in New York for some reason I wanted to go there (irl-fuck new york jk). ANYWAY, that was basically my dream, it wasn't really a cafe, it was a really big hot dog stand cafe, so tight, i must invent one and be uber hipster.

The Best Things in Life

The best things in life are a thick joint rolled, or milk macaroni (which I made while cooking with marijuana)
A recipe for weed milk macaroni (east coast people might like this especially poor pennsylvanians , because thats what my family was and that's why I know how to make this dish)
-To make marijuana butter all you have to do is put is put an amount of butter which is equal in size to the amount of weed you are using into a pan, boil the butter, then reduce heat, add weed and wait for the butter to turn a brownish greenish color. Some people take out the stems and leaves used to make the butter but I leave it in because sometimes you don't get all the thc into the butter and some might be remaining on the leaf/stem. IT ALL depends on how much of a weed taste you can really handle eating, I was overwhelmed (even though I love the taste of weed) by the taste of weed.
-Place the weed butter into the fridge and let cool. Now boil water in another pan (this is for the macaroni).
Once the water comes to a boil pour in the macaroni.
-Boil the macaroni until it is the desired softness. Then drain macaroni, add milk, and butter , and then salt and pepper (all in the amounts that you believe you can handle). Finally add the weed butter you made.

Everyone Needs Energy Saving Tech

I'm very into eco-friendly. I have one of those smith's bags that is made from canvas that you can bring to Smith's everytime and not have to use countless plastic/paper bags. My thermostat in my house is energy savings, changing the temperature every hour or so as to not rack up a huge energy bill, I live in Las Vegas its 107 degrees outside, but the energy saver still keeps the house pretty cool. I use energy saving light bulbs, energy saving dvd players, and even this Acer laptop that I'm using right now is energy saving. What isn't energy saving is my mom watching all her judge shows, I don't really know why it wouldn't be energy saving since it is using the same technology but I still know it sucks, and anything that sucks can't be that eco friendly. She just asked me if I like plums , what a douchebag. Anywho, out of all the things all my wish list I think I need an energy saving vacuum seriously. My vacuum doesn't even work. Luckily for us, dirt devil has made a vacuum that uses 70% less energy than other vacuum cleaners, It's name is the Accucharge. Check it out. Energy Star

Inspiration

It's almost 4 am here in vegas, and I'm really just addicted to my computer. I've been sitting here for hours reading random shit about things that will quite possibly never be useful in my life. Its really at 4 am in the morning that you know what you really want out of life , because you know what you aren't getting, and that's what is keeping you up at 4am in the morning. No, not sex, well it could be sex for you, but it's not for me, at least not now. I literally spend 4 hours or more each day just day dreaming. I daydream life if it were to be ideal. The funny thing is, within my many daydreams there can only be one theme and that is perfection. My daydreams have to get really specific to be ideal and that means that it is a polar opposite of life. Think about it, life is complicated, its murky, you never know if you want the poppy seed muffin or the chocolate chip muffins, all you know is they sell like a 20 pack of them at Sam's Club and you probably won't eat them all and at least 8 will go to waste. I don't know if you got that analogy, probably the only person who understands that analogy is Nessa, she knows about my murkiness, about my "Indio Downey" problem haha, that makes me sound like a pedophile :/. (he's no nick simmons). Anyways to get back on topic, sometimes I just sit up for hours daydreaming lifes perfections, (using the muffin analogy again) if woke up in the morning and the day was to be perfect you would have to give up the choice of other muffins because there is only one perfect muffin and the other muffins just don't fit in. This is going to be hard for you, giving the different characteristics of the muffins, you most likely won't even begin to compare the two because you're afraid you'll find one of the muffins to be superior. IT HAPPENS, but not to you. I believe it is human nature to want to be confused. It is human nature to not want to make a decision because it's hard. It's human nature to eat the muffin that causes you heart burn, why? deep down inside we're all masochists. Even deeper inside we're all sadistic. We're just sick human beings trying to find a place to get our proverbial rocks off proverbial muffins. We're sick and we don't even see it. We turn the simplest human interactions into games. We don't realize we're just breeders, feeders, movers and shakers. We shouldn't think so much. I definitely shouldn't.

Me Again Random Stuff I'm Thinking About

I won't lie, I'm pretty intimidated by life right now. I love who I am, and where I'm going but there are a couple things in my life that I'm really not happy about. There's a plethora of silver and hardly any gold, and barely any platinum.

Deep down inside every girl wants a 1940s movie romance, or a 1990s indie actors romance (Casey Affleck and Summer Phoenix). The whole leg lift thing, that's cute, we're not expecting that.

I love the New Millenium? Too soon? Yes. Did I dvr it anyway? Yes. Have I sat through it? No.

Ultimate Fighter: Biggest travisty of my life. CB ALL THE WAY. I honestly can't be that mad though since Amir is a good fighter, he just has a tendency to get the shit beat out of him and then pull of impressive arm bars and shit. Meh.

Creepy stalkers. Need to get a life, really tired of them.

My nails, currently really long and really coming in handy,. I really hate having short nails and I really feel naked without long nails.

So You Think You Can Dance: I do not have a clear favorite yet, but keep on that black guy that's partners with the fine ass red head. The one that they were all calling a genius. OH, wait keep on the couple that did breathe with no air song, and then did the broadway routine last week. They are phenomenal.

America's Got Talent: really angry at that four year old girl she made me cry, and I was so inspired :/
I'm somewhat of a cry whore, on father's day I watched a movie specifically because I knew I would cry my eyes out. Oh well, it's also why I love Grey's Anatomy so much,.

Alanis Morrisette needs to stop eating. BUT...! I would be fat too, because Ryan Reynolds = fine (not as fine as Jason Rudd, Dennis Leary or David Duchovny , even though Ryan Reynolds isn't middle aged he's getting up there in years) ScarJO = love her, she's delicious, she can sing, she can act, Woody likes her and I like her. She's GOT TITS! She's perfect. Eating is the least of Alanis' worries :[

Marijuana needs to be legalized because prescription pain killers are synthetic heroine. Alcohol is worse for your liver, and smoking cigarettes will kill you. You don't even have to smoke weed to get the medicinal value from it, you can cook it and you can vaporize it. More importantly you can make hemp from it, and hemp is stronger than cotton and it's cheaper to make. Its too bad that the United States has dumped hemp and marijuana together I mean they may be the same plant but they are two different things. Hemp plants are usually low in thc and are grown to make fabric, paper, plastic, literally the possibilities are endless with it. Medicinal plants have to be high in thc usually 15-25 percent thc content. So if one is basically schwag but can make a cheaper alternative to synthetic fibers, and the other is meant to alter your brain, why is hemp not being considered?

On that note , goodnight.

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Felons

Someone give me a convincing article about why felons shouldn't be able to vote. I think it's ridiculous actually, I think if you are not in prison, you should have the right to vote. Yes, If someone commits a felony than they make wrong decisions. But, if and when that person gets out jail they still have to live with the choices made by the rest of their city/state/country. Most ex-convicts don't have money, the majority the of the ex-convicts are democratic (I heard this on cnn, so who actually knows I question it because although the poor and minorities usually swing democratic there are probably areas of the United States where convicts are more like NRA gunslingers (haha a joke). I just honestly think voting isn't a privilege, it's a right. The reason why I believe that is simply living in America and reading American history, women fought to vote, blacks fought to vote. When they were fighting they weren't saying "give me my privilege". Then again the right to vote usualy comes along with the right to freedom, men who have commited felonies, obviously gave up their right to freedom, so why not their right to vote. The idea of anyone who is not able to vote sickens me, maybe I'm too liberal on this matter. I just don't think that a felon who is giving only 2 (maybe 3) options on a ballot could seriously ruin the world. UNLESS all the ex convicts decided to get together who live in Florida and not fully punch in who they wanted. for the presidency DAMN YOU CHADS!